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Home Deprived

by Guitar vs. Gravity

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1.
Hal Hartley 01:55
2.
Binoculars 04:09
Smashing instruments part of that teenage youth a trend that came and went came and went. It makes such perfect sense that we would destruct devices that gave us hope and still we feel corrupt. I don't think I can be that person again. If we had binoculars and saw just how we got here I'm sure it would have frightened us and made us sick. It makes such perfect sense that we would have to hide because we knew the big unknown wasn't what we'd implied. I don't think I can be that person again but we're scared of what we'll find and I know I can't be that person again but it's so tempting to live in the world we left behind.
3.
It's not warm and the noises frighten and I'm so worn from being up all night. What was that sound? Soon it's forgotten. I hope no one's around. I hope no one's outside. Soaking wet and locked asleep a faint resemblance to a sixth grade dream.
4.
Bright Ones 02:58
All the bright ones, the ones that are cultural, all the intriguing ones, and the ones that are beautiful, all the heart stopping ones, and the ones that haunt your dreams, are all the taken ones, or far away, it seems. But every heartbreak is a song.
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6.
Whenever I wake at night and I look into my home or into my room when I woke long ago. Aided by the dark. Aided by improper eyes. The eyes did deceive. Aided by the dark. Aided by improper eyes the room came to life.
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8.
We have our little lives full of truth and detail and momentous times that fill our insides. And all the little things so important to us are just superfluous in the grand scheme of things. And the whole world has their daily events and their rituals that mean so much. But just as such all that's integral and all of their intents means nothing in the world. And everything to everyone which is held tight and dreamed means absolutely nothing so it all means everything.
9.
Like capacitance it smooths him out, but it's coincidence that there is not incident. Now he lives through a drought. In self defense, he says it helps, but the consequence; he's lost himself. Now he lives to spite himself. Now we all know he never knew the words. We just thought he'd sung so quietly. In better times he wanted to be heard. In desperate times, he spoke the truth to me.
10.
Consider talking but he twists the words. Now this is involving innocent bystanders. Logic so easy to topple always too easy to topple. And now he's left cleaning up. And now he's daft and coming up. With responses, increasingly defensive. And commentary, completely reactionary. Considering the reasons and heading for the exit "This is the last time I'll see," he thinks to himself, "this series of rooms and the air I breathe will be the last I breathe here. And he says aloud, "Farewell to all I leave here; please have a smile, and to those who have looked forward please burn in hell."
11.
Saying goodbye. Waving from a boat setting to sea. Motion discomfort sets in and discomfort emotionally. A venerated emporium pull back the curtain and find the shelves barren. Everything is flat everything is so far apart over the land I travel and inside the heart. A venerated emporium pull back the curtain and find the shellves abandoned. And I feel home deprived as I reach my destination. And I feel satisfied like everything has a plan. And I feel home deprived with sudden complication. And I feel petrified so I just surrender surrender surrender surrender surrender.

about

Home Deprived is Guitar vs. Gravity's "Lost Album." Except for one song, I play all the instruments. It was recorded over the course of my relocation from Indiana to California and deals with what I was experiencing at the time; leaving my home and my friends, leaving the stagnant midwest, hope for a brighter future, examining my youth, and wondering where I was going to end up as an adult. It accidentally became my coming of age piece.

The recording of Home Deprived was started as a way to test out some recording gear that I had purchased in 1999. I began recording songs by myself in my loft apartment/warehouse space in Indianapolis. In 2000 I moved to California, and the album came with me. I finally finished the album in 2001.

credits

released September 1, 2001

Ben Adrian: instruments, engineering, mixing, mastering.
Andy Carrell: guitar on Please Burn in Hell
Andy, Carrell, Eric Shallop, Lela Ross: assistant engineers

Recorded June 1999 - July 2001 at Ben's various home studios.

Gabriella Marks: photos

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Guitar vs. Gravity Los Angeles, California

Guitar vs. Gravity is Ben Adrian, and has been since 1999.
Recent cohorts:
Matt Stabile
Stephen Pride
David Shollenbarger

Guitar vs. Gravity records and plays shows sporadically based on invitations, mood, and how many compliments Ben receives.
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